Emancipation

"I could promise to hold you, and to cherish you. I could promise to be there in sickness and in health. I could say ‘til death do us part but I won’t. Those vows are for optimistic couples the ones full of hope and I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic. I am not hopeful. I am sure. I'm steady. And I know I’m a hard man. Take ‘em apart, put them back together, I hold them in my hands, I am a hard man. So this I am sure you are my partner, my lover, my very best friend, my heart… my heart beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding I promise you this. I promise you, to lay my heart in the palm of your hands. I promise you… me." - Dr. Preston Burke

Almost deadline... And i still haven't started my list.

"Too often, the thing you wanted the most, is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken. It wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want." - grey's anatomy

I just want to share you something from my friend/teacher. No matter how much we deny what she wrote is true :)

From Maje:

silence is overrated

at the end of the day we just want to be with someone.

there are times when we are pushed into doing things we would never have done or believeing into things we never would have dreamed about. we say we value our space and we try to make a circular rule about us that never should be crossed by others. Invasion of privacy, keeping our defenses high ... but really some days i think its all crap.

but the truth is when were done with work, when all the pressure subside, when were left by ourselves beside brief moments before and after sleep, when we have that satisfying brew, when we have a chance to watch the rain, when we hear a great song, when we see a good view of the moon, or manage to catch the perfect sunrise, when we actually get high or low ... we just really wanna share it with someone. Honestly.

bottom line is we just want to stay close with someone.

right now ill say what i want because personally, i think, silence is overrated.

Ill be Back soon....

And It finally happened... Im resigning from my current job to transfer to another... hahay! I'll miss this job though... :(

Another weird dream last night...

Was in a car accident. On top of a mountain, brakes don't seem to work... Fell off the mountain but didn't even have a scratch on my body! weird

After a month, here's an update again. Now hows work? hahah Fun Fun Fun! How's me? hahaha new look and new hair just yesterday! hahaha surprise surprise for all of u tomorrow :)

I was thinking that once I'll start working I'll be bored or that I'll hate it. But then I was wrong as of now work just feels like going to school. The only difference is in school you can see a lot more people...(friends youknow what I mean hahaah)... :)

Sige sa adto nako... adto sa ko sm....

I keep having this dream. Me swimming. Swimming In the ocean or diving or snorkelling but once I was on a bridge and I fell into the ocean but wasnt afraid all of it I was laughing hmmm Whats with this swimming thing?

I'm counting the days left of me being a bum. part of me is excited part of me I duno.. there's still a part of frustration in me but lookig forward to the Hot :) New info... we have the same types of music wahahaha

The Short Excitement

I was taking an exam for Accenture, a company based in Manila, and wahaahha because of my talkativeness and lack of seriousness to the exam I passed. huh? passed? yup, passed as they said. I was offered a Job but BAM! I can't go to Manila. I'm not allowed to go to Manila. As much as my parents say that It's up to me... after saying this they still shove to me those unasked comments... same thing as saying ur not going. Well. this caused a big fight on one of the meals at home haha

Everyone I know who passed is going. Oppurtunity is at hand already imagine only more or less 20 are offered out of the 600+ that applied but I can't go.

Well to keep myself happy and to stop thinking about this op, Im placing it inside my mind that I can't survive living in Manila. If I go to MAnila life would be difficult,I don't know anyone from Manila even relatives, I'm the only girl among the people I know who has the option of working there so hmm loneliness no girl talk, all my paycheck would just go to the high cost of living there and most of all I'll stick to my offer here in Cebu wherein I have a gorgeous boss. But if everything doesnt work out people from accenture offered me the option that if ever I changed my mind I can still call them. hahay

But I think Its true... I'll have difficulty adjusting to life in Manila. Living on boarding houses or rented apartments and sharing a place with I duno how many ppl... big adjustment

I have a brand new niece! wahaha brand new shouldn't be the word since its not a thing but basta a new addition.

Julia Manuelle

Last time I said my vacation was over but my Bad hehehe I went to bohol again (MY THIRD TIME wahahaha) and did some snorkelling in Balicasag and whale watching wahahaha snorkelling was the best.
I really enjoyed My day in Panglao and Balicasag too bad didnt have the pics of the dolphins hahay



Michelle Mercy and Maia on the boat bound for Bohol



On the PumpBoat


Panglao is simply amazing


So excited to go snorkelling in Balicasag


Ready to Jump



Fishes and Corals here we come


We're Done


Let's go back to Panglao hehehe

Today marks the start of my job searching days. I think my vacation is already enough that I can say I'm ready to work. Had two trips to bohol and a trip to Thailand well if there's more in store why not continue vacationing hahahaa.

By tomorrow, I will get my grades since the TOR is not yet available then I'll start sending my resumes hehehee.


Gone are the days of choosing jobs hahaha "I think"......

hahaha its 2pm and im bored at home. Still jobless but just declined a job offer 4 hours ago. (I'm glad that they told me that if ever i reconsider within 6 months they'll still accept me though :)) hehe why? hahaha I know I'm crazy for already declining two job offers and here's my answer hahaha Steve Job's Speech listen to it.

Maybe I require a lot more time to think. I just couldn't make up my mind hehee

i fear, therefore i am... human

[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single
[ ] getting married
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] cats
[x] dogs
[ ] birds
[x] spiders (and/or other insects) - cockroach, and anothing that crawls.
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[ ] being put to sleep (anesthesia)
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] water
[x] the ocean
[ ] pools
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[x] thunder/lightning
[x] frogs/toads
[x] mice/rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[x] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[x] demons or evil
[ ] crossing bridges
[x] death
[x] Hell
[ ] Heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] being sexually assulted
[x] men -----> WAHAHAHAHAHA YEAH!
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[x] tornadoes
[x] hurricanes
[x] being punished
[x] diseases, including cancer and STD's
[x] snakes
[x] sharks
[x] dinosaurs
[ ] Friday the 13th
[x] poverty
[x] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[x] being alone
[x] losing my friends
[x] being blind to things
[x] being deaf
[ ] growing up
[x] being murdered in my sleep

29 out of 65 hahahaa

In exactly 96 hours, I will be grilled... charcoal broiled....

After keeping myself busy, I have regained my rest and extracurricular activities at home on the past two weeks. And in about 12 days yippeeee, i'll be done with my OJT at long last I can wake up late oops wrong! I can sleep again after i wake up early. For those of you who don't know, I have this habit of waking up early, its like inate in me that I wake up at around 6:30 to 7am, and if possible i sleep again at around 930 or something.

Now, I would have the time to lock myself up in the gym and get myself ready for summer wahahaha.

Graduating is nice but preparation for graduation is such a hassle. I was hoping if it would be possible to graduate without marching. But I just read the memo a particluar word was purposedly and specifically emphasized "should". Marching isn't such a big problem if there weren't dress codes and if the place we would march on wouldn't be that hot!

I just realized I'm that confident to graduate, to think i still have a defense by the end of the week. Wish me luck though.

P.S. in the office just killing idle time.

Wow! first post for the year!

just been so busy lately until now... taking a break from work...

in less than two months, hopefully... hopefully...

GOD! I miss making a fool out of myself... no more silly pics... no more silly games...
no mores silly ideas... The proof??? take a look at my friendster page... no more new pics... huhuhuhu


when all these ends... Ill treat you out wahahahaa

With Christmas around the corner New Year comes next... which makes me think on what I have done, tried and accomplished this year.

I'm not putting everything here into detail though hmmm there are just some things that I'd rather keep to myself and my close friends... ;D

1. Reached my last year in college.
2. Organized events I thought I could never do. when I mean events I mean BIG BIG events.
3. Travel.. finally set foot in Singapore I was expecting more though...
4. First experience with a true manghuhula. (Fortune Teller)
5. Witnessed a wedding of a close friend. (a first for the group)
6. Im not proud of this but I made a number of people cry.
7. Survived the grilling of a panel for our thesis.
8. Learned how to park cars and now trusted to drive around alone and at night.
9. Got a first real job. (OJT lang)
10. Taking my finals exam while still drunk or still had a hangover.
11. Bikini shot.
12. First time I got drunk wherein I don't remember anything that had happened.
13. Got my first ticket... was supposed to be a major offense but the guard gave in and gave me a minor one.
14. Enrolled myself to a gym.
15. Learned PHP.
16. Retired myself from leadership duties and focus on my life and studies.
17. Learned that once in a while act like no one is watching you.. its fun but hahaha be ready for tomorrow.
18. Have turned myself into a chat addict.
19. Earned my own money and has stopped asking money from my parents.
20. Watched Sinulog for the first time after more than 15 years.

My Weekend Fun

My Igaticious Nieces ambut asa na liwat


Swimming in the morning


Night Swimming Version


Burnt and ready to sleep para ready for the next day

BORING!

paid to do nothing that is! I badly need something to do or else Im going to doze off and that is prohibited here.

Things acconplished for this week:
- All the diagrams needed in our proposal
- Latex of our proposal
- enrolling for the subjects for next sem
- uniform exemption approved
- passed our thesis proposal documentation

Yesterday I was able to sleep at around 500 AM in the morning already. Hahah I let the group do all the printing book binding submitting on the morning (sun up) while I was sleeping. Well, good division of work and it was a success.

Since we have passed it already, with the approval signatures of our panel and Department chairman, It is now the starting point of our project. Programming here we come.

Since I will only be taking 10 units of classes for my last sem of my undergrad course plus six units of those subjects is I wont be attending the class I have a lot of time for my self next sem. Thats why me and my classmate/kaberks/office mate/friend/room mate/adopted sister have enrolled in a gym hahaha so our scheds goes like this OJT in the morning, workout at lunch time sleep in the afternoon skul and do project in the evening until dawn :D

PArt of me is excited to graduate but a part is still hesitant maybe because Im not sure of what the future will bring me. Its a start of being independent. Start of becoming part of the "working". MAybe its because of this fear or uncertainty of jobhunting. Face it! Getting a job is luck. Its not that Im too dumb to find a job.. I just want to have a job that is related to my field and not some other field amd also a job I can be happy especially the pay. I want a job taht can have travel oppurtunities. Now you get my point? hahaha the many demands and wants, I know the job is somewhere out there but you always got competition.

Another thing is I will miss my life with my friends in school. As a student you have a carefree life.. you can just not be present from classes and its okay.. its easy to spot your friends and time is always ours. When we start working its a great possibility that we would have different schedules. If some of us (one of them already is) will be based abroad or will be working outside of cebu then the possibility of meeting up and being complete is slim. But again life goes on... friends will always be friends...

As for today, I will be heading of to the beach. Yippe Ill be staying there for three days and two nights. Hmmm its like a kick off for me before starting our project. Haha and more pictures to take.. Im excited :D

Mood: Sleepy ("weak" rejuvenate me!)
Craving: Wasabi Burger from Burger Joint
Thinking: How the hell am i going to survive three more hours of staying here with nothing to do
Looking: for a certain person (personally or not)